Fear is a strange thing, isn’t it?  Have you ever been gripped by a fear that firmly held you into place, paralyzing you so that you were unable to clearly think or move forward?  There is every kind of fear imaginable; fear of heights, fear of death or dying, fear of living, fear of speaking, fear of harms way, crowds, clowns, spiders, flying, being alone… I could go on, and there is a unique name for all of them!

One fear in particular that I imagine touches us all at one point or another in our lifetime is the fear of death.

The more I move into a deeper relationship with my Creator, the One True God and savior, Jesus Christ, the less fear I experience in my life.  I realize His presence is the absence of fear, and under His wings I can sing for joy.  I realize that it does not matter if I am at home with family or in harms way on a battlefield with bullets whizzing past my head, the number of days my God has ordained for me was written long before I was born.  If today is the last day I am ordained to live, no circumstance can change that.  If today is not my last day, no circumstance can change that either!  Death does not discriminate, but it does not have the power to do its own thing.  It is subject to Christ!

I don’t know about you but I find that very freeing!  Fear has lost its grip and I am free to move, live, and have my being!  I also know as a child of God that my being is encircled, wrapped in Christ.  Does that mean I am bullet proof?  No, of course not!  The Lord may know my last day on this earth but I certainly do not.

What I do know is this, I can live my life in service to God, fulfilling His purpose for me, and glorifying Him free of fear in the process.  Why?  Because whether in life or in death, I am in Christ.  So if the “process” finds me in harms way, the circumstances do not change the fact that I am hidden still in the shadow of His wings.  I can do as He leads, go where I am called to go, do what I must, and I can teach my children to be fearless warriors in Christ!

You can be free of fear as well.  Do you know Jesus Christ?  He tells us in Proverbs 8:17 that “I love those who love me; And those who diligently seek me will find me“.  The scripture also says in 1 John 4:18 that “There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves punishment, and the one who fears is not perfected in love”, and John 3:16 says “For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life”.  Do you believe?

Perhaps you are already a believer and know there are fears in your life you need to let go of.  Here are a few verses that may help:

“For in him we live, and move, and have our being…” Acts 17:28

“For You have been my help, And in the shadow of Your wings I sing for joy.” Psalms 63:7

“In peace I will both lie down and sleep, For You alone, O LORD, make me to dwell in safety.” Psalms 4:8



Hoping to catch some fall colors and breathtaking views, recently my husband and I decided we would take a trip through the Wet Mountains to see the Sange de Christo Mountain rage just west of WestCliffe, Colorado.  We had been watching the weather forecast closely, as heavy clouds and rain was being predicted over most of the state, and this area seemed like our best chance at decent weather.

In the morning prior to heading out I had been once again reading Hebrews chapter 11, called by some the “Hall of Faith”, as it walks us through multiple examples of those who have gone before us.  The common denominator in all of them was they had chosen to demonstrate to us the meaning of that very first verse : “Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen”. 

As we were on our way out of the city, the clouds were so heavy and low it was almost like fog in some places.  Not always rain but very wet. I was constantly having to wipe the windshield.  My husband said “I don’t know, honey, I’m not so sure we will get out of this.”  “Well”, I said, “the weather forecast for Westcliffe was partly cloudy with only a 15% chance of moisture”.

Several times along the way, my husband continued to expressed doubts that we would be able to see anything at all.  There was a certain ridge, however, on the passage over the Wet Mountains that I had become very fond of, as once crested, became a window to the entire Sange de Christo range.  It was so breathtaking!  My hope was that once we reached that height, we would pull out of the thick cloud cover and all would be well.   To that my husband said, “perhaps, but we’ll be looking down on the clouds then and still may not see much of anything.  I laughed, but began secretly to wonder if he may be right.

That was when the Lord reminded me of that first verse in Hebrews 11.  “Faith is the assurance of things hoped for…” The weather forecast certainly gave me hope!  “…the conviction of things not seen”.  I had seen previous evidence and certainly had the conviction, the belief, that the sun was shinning beyond the clouds, and was sure hoping we would pull out of those clouds sometime soon.

Then, all of the sudden, it happened at exactly the point I had predicted.  BOOM, there was an abundance of blue sky and sunshine overhead as we drove right out of those clouds and left them all behind.  In front of us was one of the most glorious views of those mountains I had ever seen!  It had snowed on top of them the day before, a local told us later.

It was spectacular in more ways than one, as I was able to experience first hand a very practical application of what it meant to have faith.  And the faith I was expressing was in the weather forecast, no doubt!  But it allowed me to catch a glimmer of what faith in God Himself could really do, and for that I am grateful.

Who have you placed your faith within?  What is it that you are hoping for?

Salvation for Angels?

Have you ever wondered why there is no mention of God offering the gift of salvation to angels? The bible tells us clearly that there were angels in heaven who sinned against God, and as a result are no longer in their place with Him (Isaiah 14:12-17; Luke 10:18; II Peter 2:4; Jude 1:6).  They sinned.  We sinned.  We get offered the gift of salvation.  They do not.

In pondering that question recently, I believe the scriptures and things that came to mind answered my question.  In my playful imagination, however, I could see a conversation between me and the Lord going something like this:

Me: “Lord, how come there is no salvation for the angels?  At least, there is nothing mentioned in scripture along those lines, is there?”

The Lord: “They were with Me in heaven before I created time”

Me: “Okay”

The Lord: “They beheld My glory”

Me: …

The Lord: “You were born into a fallen world, into a fallen nature”

Me: … (I can sense that He is smiling as I look at Him questioningly)

The Lord: “You, who were born into a fallen world and never beheld My glory, have by faith chosen to believe in those things which you could not see. You have chosen of your own free will to love Me.  I wanted to offer you a way that you could be with Me, through My Son and the price He paid with His blood, because I love you.

Those angels who have fallen, they were with Me before I created time, and they beheld Me in all My glory.  They know I AM, and yet, they of their own free will have chosen not to love Me.  Do you understand the difference now, my child?”

Me: “Yes! Yes, Lord, I think I do”

The Lord: “I have given everyone the free will to love Me or not.  Those who choose not to love Me do not receive life, but death.”


John 3:16 NASB “For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life.”

Hebrews 1:1;6  “Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen… But without faith it is impossible to please him: for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him.”



One of the mysteries of God to me growing up was how He can create something so big, so vast as the universe all the way down to things smaller than a human cell, and yet in the midst of it all He immensely loves and cares for me still as an individual. Even though He’s busy with all that, He always has time for me.

One day not long ago as I was using my fingers to zoom in on a photo displayed on my phone, it struck me that size is as irrelevant to Him as time because He has the ability to manage them in any way He wants. If I can do that with a photo, why could not the Creator do that with the universe or a cell? It has only been within the last decade that we’ve had a glimmer of this through our ability to not only project an image but to direct it, rotate, zoom in or out, mark up or change, all with our fingers.

Funny how we think we know it all sometimes.


“Who else has held the oceans in his hand? Who has measured off the heavens with his fingers? Who else knows the weight of the earth or has weighed the mountains and hills on a scale? Who is able to advise the Spirit of the Lord? Who knows enough to give him advice or teach him? Has the Lord ever needed anyone’s advice? Does he need instruction about what is good? Did someone teach him what is right or show him the path of justice? No, for all the nations of the world are but a drop in the bucket. They are nothing more than dust on the scales. He picks up the whole earth as though it were a grain of sand.”  ‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭40:12-15‬ ‭NLT‬‬

Having Done All, Stand!

What happened to Christians in America, and Christians everywhere in the Western world, that we have all collectively over the past century taken on a defeatist attitude and allowed the strategy of the evil one to progress to the point it has today?   Christians not only have allowed it to progress, but have in many cases actively bought into it and taken part in it.

I wish I could point a finger and say I have not been a part of that, but I fear I have been just as condoning, complacent, and compliant. That thought is becoming increasingly burdensome to me.  Am I His child or not? Do I call Him Lord? Of course I am His child and He is absolutely Lord! Then why have I allowed my personal agenda and desire for comfort to supersede His purpose for so long and so often? Why have any of us? We are only on this earth for a fraction of time, and I have wasted many years already.

As Ephesians 6:10-20 so adequately puts it, what is happening today is no ordinary battle and we will not be able to fight it in our own strength. No amount of diplomacy, no amount of additional laws, no amount of embracing diversity, not even worrying or complaining, no physical outward thing will ever be enough in itself to push back those lines.  Why? Because at the physical level there are too many fronts requiring battle, and at that point we’re fighting the shadow of the enemy and not the enemy himself.  There is only one way for us to overcome in battle against the evil one, and that is with the WHOLE armor of God, which is why this portion of scripture was written.

There is one particular element about the armor, however, that am realizing has been often overlooked or minimized, and I don’t think I am alone. Mind you it is by far not the only piece but at the same time I believe we have minimized the value and importance of how this piece fits into the strategy overall.  What would you say it is? What is the first thing that comes to mind?

I see that piece as prayer, and here is why:

All other pieces of the armor are ones we put on, or “wear”, outwardly. Prayer is the only one that can be internally continuous. It is like the breath in our lungs. Perhaps that is why we don’t think about it, because we have to breathe otherwise we die. So we almost see at as an afterthought (“oh yeah by the way…”). For me, I’m beginning to see it as vital as I would see a communications radio on a battlefield.  A silent prayer also maintains operational and communications security, since Satan, as opposed to God, cannot hear our thoughts.

I have failed up until now to realize, understand, and underscore how vitally important it is for me to pray for my family members to have a closer walk with God. Unfortunately for several of them that is territory that Satan has taken, and I intend to fight for it back!

I am realizing too the importance of not having a defeatist attitude in respect to this nation, the United States.  This requires me as a Christian to not buy into the attitude that because perhaps this is the actual end of the end of days, then I should just sit and wait for the second coming of Christ that this present darkness tells me is imminent.

I hope you don’t misunderstand me, I do believe that God is in control, but I must be careful not to allow that thought to release me of any responsibility from the great commission and to uphold His principles.  Remember, no one knows the day or hour.   In other words, God has not issued the operations order for us to lay down our arms and allow the enemy full throttle to destroy the country He gave us.  If you have bought into that line of thinking then you might want to rethink who issues your orders, because they are surely not coming from the one who directs this battle.

So what should we do?  I encourage you to first of all read Ephesians 6:10-23, pasted here below for your convenience.  It is time for Christians in America to take back the land given to us so that we could have a place where we are free to worship in public and advance the gospel of the kingdom.  It is time to stand like a warrior.  So after reading, I invite you to get down on your knees with me and pray!  We are then going to put on all parts of our armor and go forth in battle on all fronts, spiritual and physical.

God’s kingdom rule is everywhere.  Evil is still allowed to dance freely for a while, but that does not mean that God is not King of his kingdom.  This type of spiritual warfare requires of us continual prayer, heavy artillery fire in the means of setting aside our personal agendas and choosing purpose over preference when it comes to actions, such as active mentoring and discipleship of one another and of our children.  A fervent love for one another.  Politically it requires proactive research of issues (not just buying in to what the media tells us) and knowledge of political strategies, the willingness to pray for those in leadership and to vote according to our principles, morals, and beliefs – NOT according to how many freebies or how much we can expect the government to take care of all our needs.  To make sure we safeguard the constitution and our God-given freedoms, which implies we first must know them!  Our prayers can release air support to drop from the heavens!

Think about the baker who refuses to bake a cake to celebrate an abomination, to the Christian who writes a letter to their congressman about the indoctrination with Islamic ideals in schools, to the volunteer worker that explains to children in vacation bible school what is pleasing to God and Who is their guiding compass for the moral issues in their life, to the military chaplain who refuses to stop praying in the name of Jesus.  Until the moment you and I are standing in the presence of the Lord, we are called to continue the good fight.  No surrender, no truce, no aid and comfort to the enemy.  This enemy has subverted, infiltrated, manipulated, bated, and perverted man since the beginning of time. He deserves no quarter.  So I call upon all Christians to get on their knees and pray. Fight the enemy by all means and love the hell out of people.


Ephesians 6:10-20, NASB:

“Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of His might.  Put on the full armor of God, so that you will be able to stand firm against the schemes of the devil. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the powers, against the world forces of this darkness, against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly places. Therefore, take up the full armor of God, so that you will be able to resist in the evil day, and having done everything, to stand firm. Stand firm therefore, having girded your loins with truth, and having put on the breastplate of righteousness, and having shod your feet with the preparation of the gospel of peace; in addition to all, taking up the shield of faith with which you will be able to extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.

With all prayer and petition pray at all times in the Spirit, and with this in view, be on the alert with all perseverance and petition for all the saints, and pray on my behalf, that utterance may be given to me in the opening of my mouth, to make known with boldness the mystery of the gospel, for which I am an ambassador in chains; that in proclaiming it I may speak boldly, as I ought to speak.”

Conversations with God

Have you ever listened to a publicly spoken prayer, or even perhaps to one of your own prayers, where what is being spoken sounds so noble and right but you know is somehow off at the same time, and yet you can’t quite put your finger on why?

I find myself lately in (yet another) spiritual journey.  This time it is all about prayer.  How to pray, how to listen, how to yield, how to commune with God.  I was bothered by what I heard coming out of my mouth in prayer to Him, so I decided to ask Him why, and to teach me how to pray.  Naturally I thought of when the disciples asked Jesus the same question, and His answer in return was ALL of Mathew chapter six, although we so often focus in on the summary, which is famously known as “The Lord’s Prayer”.

What was it about my prayers, private or public, that bothered me so much?  I was asking God for such critical things!  Financial blessing, healing, increase, signs indicating direction and His will for my life, for Him to reveal His heart to me, speak to me, rescue me from circumstances, give me safe travels, keep my family from harm.  I could go on listing all the things that I believe are not just unique to me but to many of us.

Even though I was taught to ask God for these things, the pattern I noticed most was “I, me, mine”, and I knew instinctively it didn’t align with the Lord’s prayer or any other part of Matthew chapter six for the most part.  Somehow the more my desire increased to really know Him, the more these kinds of prayers began to help me understand why Oswald Chambers said that God was not an “eternal blessing machine”.  I wanted to know God for more than just what He could provide.  I wanted to know Him for who He IS!

I began to pray, “Lord, teach me to incorporate Your word in my prayers, to pray to You in communion, as You would desire, not as I would desire”.  I was tired of giving the Lord “commands” to do things He already promised in His word that He would do.  Instead I wanted to align with the promises He had given me.  I wanted to lay down my own agenda, to pick up my cross, and to follow Him!

It was only as I began to yield to Him in this way that I discovered His will for my life is not an end destination where I can say “See here, I have finally arrived, I am just now fulfilling God’s will for my life”.  No.  God’s will for my life, for your life, is all about the journey, the process.  Because He has given me free will, there is a LOT of freedom in my choices to go this direction or that.  I don’t want to imply He doesn’t care about the direction I choose, He does.  But I believe He is more interested in how we interact, react, grow, and learn along the way (be ye holy as I am holy); and He tells us over and over again as long as we delight ourselves in HIM, as long as we love HIM, He works all things out for good.

Loving Him – not the ministry or cause or our ability to serve or the recognition of our good works – just Him, is the gateway to all I need in life.  Being in right relationship with Him, and working out the salvation He has given me through being yielded to the Holy Spirit, so that my capacity for love of Him and love of others is expanded.  The desire for communion and fellowship with the Everlasting Father, Creator, Holy and Almighty God somehow begins to diminish my desire to have my own needs met.  They quickly fade in the light of His face, and all I want is for my life to be a reflection of Him, to honor and glorify Him all my days.




Lose Yourself

Matthew 5:3 tells us that the Kingdom of heaven belongs to the poor in spirit.  Have you ever thought about what this means to you? It is easy for us to walk in our own strength, means, ability, and beauty.  But the Lord calls us to lay it all down, give up our own way, our agenda and our ideas of what His will is for our lives, to pick up our cross daily, and follow him.

I am blessed in my poverty. That is the area where I recognize I can offer God nothing. When we can take no credit, where we have no strength of our own, it is through this poverty that we enter the Kingdom. When we recognize that we are indeed poor, and willingly empty ourselves of ourselves, this is where I end and He begins, and accomplishes through our weaknesses the things we nor anyone else could ever do.

Learning through physical dependence how to be spiritually dependent is a hard thing unless we are willing to embrace it. That is the moment the heal marks in the dirt behind us turn into foot prints. Our cross is our burden, but he is more than willing to carry it for us if we yield to him.

I love how The Message bible frames Matthew 16:24-26:

“Then Jesus went to work on his disciples. “Anyone who intends to come with me has to let me lead. You’re not in the driver’s seat; I am. Don’t run from suffering; embrace it. Follow me and I’ll show you how. Self-help is no help at all. Self-sacrifice is the way, my way, to finding yourself, your true self. What kind of deal is it to get everything you want but lose yourself? What could you ever trade your soul for?”

Lose yourself in the things of this world and you have lost everything, even your soul. To lose yourself in Him, however, is to find yourself.  Will identified, purpose lived, destiny fulfilled.